Incidental

[carose59]

Incidental*

*(ignored by God)


                                    I am not stupid.



A fool, certainly, but not stupid.  I know
                         (have always known)
                  that if the distance between us closed,
                       you would hurt me.

                       That the best I could hope
          would be for you to
                                 taste my heart like
raspberry-ripple ice cream

 and drop it

 unfinished,


in a litter basket.

  (Keep America Beautiful)


   More likely I would be  
 invisible as the
linoleum,

a weed
 climbing
 a fence
 at the side of an alley--
       one day to     flower,    worship the sun,     fade


 unseen.



             Once I dreamed the chasm           separating

  us

 was a minor inconvenience--


something as small

 and incidental as death,

 but of course that 
was just a story
                      I told myself,
                  while waiting for sleep;
                            a moment's daydream.



Standing,
    staring into your eyes,
     I would still not make your line of sight.


     I pour my love into an empty cup.
                 You will never see me.